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The independent woman

Independence is really a double-edged sword...

On one hand, it totally empowers you... you take charge of your own life, totally capable of surviving on your own and can make any decision that needs to be made...

But, sometimes... it really takes a toll... times when you need some comfort, no one really asks... because they are used to you being able to take control of everything... times when you want to be dependent, no one wants to lend a helping hand because they didn't think you would need help... times when you just want to take the passenger seat, there is no one to offer a ride because they are used to you driving yourself everyday...

Sometimes I love how I can do everything on my own... sometimes I really miss being pampered and taken care of... Sad to say... I guess every girl still dreams of being treated like a princess in their hearts... no matter how independent or successful they are...

Eat Pray Love

This movie is all the rage now... alot of bad reviews for it... lengthy, boring, uninspiring....

Hmm I would say, compared to the book, the movie definitely did not do the author justice... The movie was ok. Julia Roberts is one of my favourite actresses, so I guess I'm abit biased here... She acted well... a charming character but the whole story pretty much focused on the ramblings and complaints of a 30-something divorcee... It is indeed not very inspirational...

After watching the movie, I went back and started reading my book again... I had started reading it awhile ago during a relaxing trip... but after returning to Singapore, I hadn't been able to find time to read again... I was halfway through it... and from memory, it was a really good read... because the author is able to give insights to many common womanly issues as well as inspirational thoughts...

I remember this from her book very vividly... "You can never see your own reflection in running water, only in still water"... I know this is just common sense... but how many people can really achieve this? We go through our daily episodes in a jiffy... every day rushes by with errands to run, deadlines to meet... we often let our lives rushed by without taking a breather... without any thoughts and reflections... and without these, I find that you don't get to see yourself clearly... you don't learn anything from your life...and it becomes pretty much meaningless... so, sometimes... taking time off during the weekend would be good to see things in perspective and do some soul-searching... and fyi, sleeping doesn't count!

In all fairness, I think the book is really a good read... the movie... hmm... just treat it as a weekend entertainment and it is really not that bad... ;p

Is it age?

All my life... I have been rather fearless in major decisions in my life... the schools I picked, the course I wanna do, my career choices, business decisions... I was never intimidated by "what-ifs"... I always thought to myself... This is what I want, I should have no regrets... And everytime I made up my mind, I never looked back...

But somehow, I'm no longer sure anymore... what happened to the gutsy me? How did I become so wishy-washy all of a sudden?

I guess as one grows older, mindset will change... In the past, I only need to think for myself... I was self-centred... I only need to find some solution that caters best to myself... Never thinking of how it will affect other people... Or rather, I was oblivious to how it will affect other people... My mum once told me she couldn't understand why I went to set up a retail store when I should be focusing on studies... Luckily, everything still turned out well and I didn't end up a school drop-out! I asked her why didn't she stop me... she said she tried but I paid no attention to her... and everyday, I was rushing in and out of home and she gave up trying to talk to me...

I don't think I'm more considerate now... but at least, I'm more conscious of the feelings of people around me... I'm afraid they will be disappointed, hurt or sad... and I don't want to do that to my loved ones... So yes, I'm willing to listen now... But because of this, I find myself taking much more time to make decisions... and I don't like it this way... It's tiring to keep thinking of the same thing over and over again ya? I guess I need to find a balance between pleasing everyone and being myself... something I'm still trying to figure out... someone please enlighten me if you already know how... ;)

The real Superwoman

When can a woman be considered a superwoman?

Does being the CEO in some MNC make one super? Or braving through tough times to become an entrepreneur? Or is she the lady who has scaled Mt Everest?

I think all the above are superwomen in their own rights...

But who I'm inspired with is this intelligent lady who is willing to give up all her dreams and ambitions to take a backseat in her career to focus on assisting her husband and nurturing her kids. She devoted her entire life for this purpose... What fuels her selflessness? Is it love and maternal instinct? Or is it role and responsibility? Either way, I think it takes superhuman effort to give up one's dreams... and I respect her for that courage and conviction...

Do angels exist?

For the first time in my life, I really wish angels do exist...

And I can see the significance of a religion...

When you are feeling helpless, you wish there would be a superior being who can solve your problems...

When no one is there to listen, you have someone who is ever-ready to listen to you...

When you are disappointed, there is someone to lend you a crying shoulder...

And when you are feeling happy, there is someone to share your joy...

Of course, reasons are endless and could be much deeper... But for now, I really need one...

Melting words...

Today, I had the pleasure of attending a meeting with boss and his best friend.

The agenda for the meeting was on some property venture together and I was just invited to sit in so as to learn more of the procedures and thought process.

We were in the meeting room and after some introduction to his friend, Mr A, we all sat down... Then boss casually asked "How have you been? How's Rachel?" (Mr A's wife)...

Mr A replied "Oh I'm very good... and Rachel is amazing and beautiful as always..."

Awww.... my heart melted.... these words coming from a late 30s guy.... and to think they have been married for 10 years with a 8-yr-old son... so super sweet! Yes yes, I admit I'm a sucker for sweet nothings...

Alot of people may think words are superficial and over-rated... But I still think they hold a certain level of significance... I personally feel it's not so easy to say mushy things when you don't mean it... so it does mean something if you can feel it and say it ya?

And a little a day can go a long way... heh... ;)

A wedding in the air!

What a crazy wedding! The entire wedding stage is suspended while the guests are housed in the tent below... I wonder what the point is if your guests can't see your ceremony... totally weird! Haha...