Pretty Flower bouquets?

Pretty gowns?

It's 2011 already?

Time is flying by way too quickly...

Unknowingly, it has been 1 week into 2011... but I still feel bogged down by all the troubles from Dec 2010... feeling rather disillusioned... like there is no closure for 2010... like nothing was settled or concluded... and I'm not sure what I have accomplished for the year...

Of course, 2011 is an exciting year for me and I'm definitely looking forward to all that's coming along... I just hope that everything will straighten itself out and turn out well in the end... I know I need to think simply sometimes... things doesn't have to be so complicated...

Perfectionist?

I don't think I'm one but I just like/ hope to do things the best they can be...

Something I can be proud of... as I derive much satisfaction from a job well done... like adrenaline rush to an athlete...

I figured... since you are already spending time doing it, may as well do it well... why do a shoddy job or produce something mediocre? Isn't it a waste of time and effort? And you will never realize what your full potential is... you will just be any other nobody on the street... by saying this, I'm not implying that I'm somebody now... but at least I think I have no regrets and no "what-ifs"...

If you have done your best and still failed? Well well... then I guess... learn from all the mistakes and try to make the best out of them? ;p

All-rounder?

Sometimes I just wish I could do everything on my own... No one seems to be able to do things according to how I want it to be... And when they can't achieve what you want, they accuse you of being a perfectionist... Frustrating!

I wish I could be the photographer who can take fabulous pictures and edit them to exactly the colour, contrast, brightness and size I need...

I wish I could be the programmer who could ensure everything on the website works and all the boxes and lines fits into every version of computers and internet platform...

I wish all my staff thinks like me...

I wish and I could only wish...

Over-active brain cells...

It's 5.12am on a monday morning and here I am... wide awake after 4 hours of tossing and turning on the bed... can't seem to get to sleep... and so I have decided to get up and "evaluate" the situation. I thought... somehow, writing out all my thoughts will help me out with my insomnia?

Hmm... what could be the reason? Is it because of incomplete work with a looming deadline on the 14thDec? Or in fact, most of my work are still WIP... way behind time...

Or is it because I'm worried about not doing enough for my personal projects? Can't seem to settle on a final look on the house and I haven't been researching on gowns!!! Oh no oh no... getting panicky...

Hmm... maybe it's because I'm afraid to face my boss after a mysterious MIA incident on our company retreat... bleah...

So feel like digging mum out of bed for a chat... haha... :p

Oh well... I guess I should just go wash up and go to office early then... maybe starting to finish some of the work will help...

Travelling solo...

I'm sitting in the business room of a hotel in Hong Kong as i'm typing this...

Being away in a foreign land alone is really quite a refreshing experience for me now... I have been away on solo trips before but it just feels different now that I'm not single... I think it's a mindset... the urge to share every emotion with your loved one... I was immensed in so much sights and sounds, so much excitment and emotions... there were so many times I was mesmerized by the beautiful night scenery along the streets and I wanted to exclaim "So beautiful!" but I couldn't cause I don't want people to start thinking I'm crazy... and all these feelings are just bottled up... feels kind of "over-loaded" now...

But having so much "me time" overseas is good in a way that you kind of get to take a step back and think about all the things that are happening in your life now... I don't know how it happens... but I can just see everything in a new perspective, like I'm a third person looking in at all the things happening to me... it's so weird... I guess that's what travelling does to a person... it broadens a person's perspective... making one more open-minded and big-hearted? Alot of things seem so clear now... and getting pissed or angry with someone or something seems pretty meaningless... I think there are much better things to do in this world...

Seeing new things along the streets and meeting new people along the way also prompts alot of creativity... there are immense possibilities out there... so much so that it makes me feel hopeful and motivated again... Saying this because I pretty much work alone and sometimes... it gets kind of boring and I would feel uncompelled to do more... but all this new things are really inspiring... it's like renewed energy... I feel ready to brave any new challenges ahead and to be able to realize all the fresh ideas in my head... it's really important to feel driven... the desire to want to do better for yourself everyday... without this, it would really be a dread to go to work or go about your daily chores... Yup, feeling inspired once again... happy =)